wait...
wait...
wait........

WAIT?

how about you go and tell a cancer patient to wait for another decade to do his chemotherapy treatment?


how about you go and tell your parents to wait till they get old so you can start to be a filial son?


how about you go and tell the kids to wait till they grow up so you can start teaching them to walk and talk?


how about you wait till the fire burns down the whole house only you start to dial for the fire brigade?


how about you wait till my feelings are all gone so you can start to fix things at YOUR RIGHT TIME?


you say you still have feelings for me
you say you wanna fix things
you say you want to find the right time


until now..
you are still so selfish

.............

i am so ..so ..so ...extremely.... dumb to actually still care about you at this time
i am still thinking .. what were you doing right now...how were you ... have you taken your meals..and etc etc etc
i've never been this irrational
people say love is blind
yea i'm blind

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..........
why do you still want me to suffer till your right time comes?

do you not care about my feelings anymore?

no , maybe you don't

but still

why you do want to make yourself suffer too?

my father taught me,
when a problem arise, a solution needs to be taken quick,fast and accurate to avoid the problem from becoming bad to worse.

i don't see the point waiting for YOUR right time now
when YOUR right time comes,it might not be my right time anymore


why ....
to be honest, i want this to be fixed quickly before i leave
but you........

yeah.
you're just another selfish bastard

you still want things to go your way?
fine


if you want everything to go your way,fine,you go yours and i'll go mine.
we wont cross roads because we deal things differently

..................

i've swallowed my pride
asking you if you want to fix things

i've never seen..never seen someone who asked someone who was doing wrong to fix things

and this is happening to us.

wasn't it suppose to be YOU saying you wanna fix things ,you want us to be back to normal?

no

why am i the one pouring efforts AGAIN?!?!!?!!?!

I'MSOPISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i swallowed my pride

it's like i'm begging you to actually fix things so that I CAN FORGIVE YOU AND BACK TO HOW WE USED TO BE

I FUCKING SWALLOWED MY PRIDE AND YOU ... just played with it


i .. silent myself from you for a few days
hoping you still care about me
but no

you did not

you
didn't
even
care
to
send
a
message

and
yet
you
say
you
still
like
me

.......
i'm so fucking pissed off that my eyes are so dry it won't cry for you anymore


YOU SAY YOU LIKE ME AND THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT ME?

fine

i stopped this whole cold treatment thing by sending you a message
and guess what?
i swallowed my pride again

asking you to fix things before i leave
actually more like begging you to ask me out so that we can both solve this thing
and guess what
i swallowed my pride
and what i got from you?

WAIT.

today i might live,tomorrow i might not..
just how long you want me to wait? .....
when i get on that plane,
i entrusted my life to the pilot's hands

with all those missing plane,plane crashed happening this year..

i'm scared i might never get to see you again

you might think this is rubbish

but no ...everything is possible





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if you wonder why i blocked you on twitter

because i'm afraid every single tweet of mine will stab you right into your heart

i like to express every single thing i feel at that current moment in twitter

you say you get notification when i tweet

why would i want to ruin your mood with my tweet

it's best if you don't see my tweet


and also,
all the tweets you favourite are visible
those people who favourite your tweets are also visible

stab stab stab right through my heart.

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i hate myself so much for having this kind of personality,
jealous easily,fucking possessive.....
i know both of these will ruin any kind of relationship
i've tried...tried so hard to change it
but no, i just can't as if it runs in my blood and i can only make them disappear if i disappear too

i'm sorry, jun xian
because of my bad traits,
i will always..always...always create problems for you
i will hurt you endlessly
but
you know what
it hurts me ten times as much as i hurt you

because other than your family, no one loves you as much as i do


bye