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it's Friday 2am in the morning and I'm still not asleep yet....
Million of thoughts in my mind but I'm unable to convey it

Night like this fears me
Depression slowly eats up my light soul
I'm able to sleep but I'm reluctant to.

Because I'll always wait
Waiting for my soul to be repaired,from pieces to a brand new form

no matter it's from home or love's root
I'm feeling pressured
As if the whole world is on my shoulders
I can feel every gram of the weight pressing on me

If God is willing to grant me a one day peace in my nest wish,
I will be thankful for it
To be able to change my breadwinner's temper
My wish will be easier to fulfill

If God is willing to guide me the way for a better love life,
I promise I will educate our future kids to be an angel

When they start to fight and yell,
I feel small
When he starts to ignore me,
I feel like my heart is ripping
The results will always be the same

Day by day,
A crack of my heart becomes a hole
I started to silent myself and find pleasure from entertainment
I think of Him and speak out my worries and concerns to Him
That is the least I can do for myself.

i had done my best
I tried to enlighten the mood
I tried talking to you
I tried...at least I tried
At least I did something that no one wanted to do it first

The problem is
I'm the only one who wanted to fix everything back
No one...no one wants to fix it with me
I thought we are a family,we are committed in a relationship
I guess nothing last forever and
With only one effort,nothing's gonna work

Man proposes God disposes
I tried my best
And now everything is left for God to decide
Anything that happen ,I shall accept and face it

Until the end
All that left was only me walking alone on the route


I shall live on
So my efforts are not wasted thus appreciated and utilized