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Friday
10am in the morning.



I'm feeling awake
I kept reminding myself not to cry for the same man over and over again
I'm still young
If it's a mistake,I should let it go and try again

Slept with millions of thoughts,woke up with millions of thoughts
Today,I thought of it again when I woke up

You said you still like me
But the truth is
You don't anymore
I will accept it calmly

If you like someone
You will still care
You won't ignore
And you will just be like other guys
Never stop proving your affectionate side to your girl
Keeping her calm and happy
Not to have tears dripping down from her eyes

Just admit it and say it out loud and clear that
You don't have feelings for me anymore
Or you are disgusted by the way i stir things up just because you went for a trip and you are not initiative enough and you bloody hell treated me like how you treat other girls making me feeling so insecure and not special at all

When I see other people same age as us having a relationship,
I told myself not to compare because our happiness can be found in different ways than other people
But as time comes,
Burden accumulates on me
I have reached the limits of compromising and acting like it's okay for you to do all those things
Despite of many times I have confronted you about it
You seems to never learn,don't care or maybe it just runs in your blood that you ant change it anymore

When I see other people showering love with each other,
I imagined that could be us too
But the reality I knew was
A girl trying hard to get attention from her boyfriend who constantly keeps quiet and playing his phone
A girl who who is satisfied even just a small kiss from her boyfriend or maybe one single look from him
As if making that girl an annoying bitch who clings around her boyfriend who doesn't have feeLings for her anymore

I could have ended everything so much earlier or before
But
I still love you so much
I couldn't do that
Because I still do
I did things that not a girl would have done
I tolerate,compromise every single inch of you unlike any other girls

However
If you eat a piece of rotten apple everyday
You will get sick ....
I think I'm sick

If you still have feelings for me
The person who text you first isn't me anymore
It was suppose to be the other way round
You wouldn't say time would cure
Because to me,time wouldn't cure because we haven't ended yet
Why would time cure when there's someone that can cure faster and more effectively?
Everyday you will try to talk to me
But why is it...the other way round?

You told me you will meet me today
But you forgotten you don't care you made a fool out of me

I am so dumb and stupid to still care about an unrequited love right?

It's either you end this by saying you don't like me anymore
Or you stop hurting me

There's no such thing as you still have feelings for me but you don't talk to me you ignore me you tell me to wait