end

why am I here again?


i feel so sad


i've been crying every night

a part of me wanted to leave, a part of me wanted to stay


i'm in a state of confusion
where lights don't guide me to where I want to go
where dark don't give out the feeling of fear to me anymore


but i'm slowly,getting used to it.

i don't think of you as frequent as last time
i don't wanna stick with you anymore

do you know what it means?


my heart is slowly getting colder .......
and i'm getting even more depressed.

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you know shit happened when you cry over a marriage
i did
this morning.

neighbour getting married and all the honks... got me crying again

not because its touching , its because ...............

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

i was so near,so near in ending it.

you never seemed to make an effort,why should I?

you only care about what is going to happen,what am I going to do,what I eat, where I go...

do you even know there are more important things going on?

of course you don't

maybe you know,
but just that you don't care anymore


i prefer questions like,

how are you feeling today? 
are you feeling happy?
are you feeling sad?
why are you sad?
why are you angry?
what can i do to make you happy again?


no.

fuck this relationship

i'm ending this once and for all.