WHY ALL I HEAR WAS SORRY ?
NOW WHAT'S THE MEANING OF SORRY IF YOU JUST SAID IT AND YOU DON'T MEAN IT?
someone in my life asked me before, i still remember it is one of my childhood best friends..slightly younger than me..different than lots of other boys...
he asked me naively ,
" ann jiejie, why do people always say sorry so easily without thinking but never tried asking what can they do to make everything better for us? "
That time, I was stunned . His age , I really can't imagine him asking me such a complicated question that even I can't find an answer...
I remembered that we're just at the room playing some board games , i was just only .. 11 , I believe.
I smiled at him , patted his back and said,
" one day when you grow up , you'll understand that saying sorry, is easy but trying to fix things , is difficult. "
He laughed at me -.- yes, he laughed at me . I stared at him with the thought of killing him.
He told me something that even shocked me more ,
" I hate the word sorry. People never tried to fix things .Saying sorry will never let me feel satisfied. They cherish their ego too much and lack of courage really disappoints me. Do you understand what I feel, ann jie jie? "
He left me even more question marks that time . He stood up and left me inside the room alone. I was still .. you know, like stupid person sitting there thinking .... . That's the toughest question he ever asked me. Although our conversations are only about questions , questions ,questions and i'll be answering answering answering but this one.. really made me blurred.
Hmmmmmmmph , I can't believe that I still remember that memory. That memory show how immature I am compared to a boy who is younger than me. -.-
I wonder how is he. I lost contact with him after he moved to somewhere far... .
We used English to communicate and always play board games for no reason.
He always asked me questions that are beyond his level to think -.-
For example , : "why are adults so annoying? " , " why do people pretend to be so nice in front of people but talking bad behind of people's back ? "
I'll always try to answer him LOL.
But of course, he do ask me questions that I don't even know how to answer him because lack of IQ -.-
He will seriously throw the dice at me if I were to speak broken English to him. Argh.
Thinking of these, really want to make me laugh. Really really nice memories but too bad, he's just someone who walked in to my life and gave me big time lessons and the one who left without leaving a footprint behind...
Aaaaaaaih.
childhood life is so much better compared to now -.-
hmmmmm,
so the question's answer,
i'm still confused :)
fine, i'll just stick to how the 11 years old me answered,
saying sorry is easy but fixing things is the difficult part.
hmmmmmph ,
now I understand how you feel ,pal.. I seriously understand.. :D
peace. :D
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