expected

as expected....
everything of me is going to be in pieces .

my mom said..
its because my mood affected my health

[ surprised because i thought she don't know anything -.- ]

why am I not happy?
why my mood that low?
all because YOU ALL DIDN'T TRUSTED ME.

fine, rubbish.
yes, i'm a rubbish :]

hooray :D

i'll just .. you know? rest in peace ~~

medication is over, side effects are coming .

i don't know why i was born that weak . :((

now, I know how it feels .. that when you are weak , when you need someone the most by your side but no one is right beside you giving you support and make you at least think that..everything is going to be fine....

i don't need people to add salt add vinegar . it's giving me a headache.. =.=

...........

i have the feeling..i'm going to vomit out my dinner.. zzz.........

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just now, I fucking   collapsed all of the sudden.

lucky i'm in my room... or else.. I don't know what will happen la.

Zzz... Do you know I've the sudden thinking that i'm going to lose my life in any second ?

knocked my head, injured my knees.........

on the floor trying to shout but no voice come out -.-"

i'm so scared that time.. i thought i am going to lose everything in just a sudden.
but.. don't know where my strength came from . :D maybe because I don't really want to die... so.. I slowly crawled to my bed... using effing lots of strength to climb up to the bed... zzz like cacat people .. then.. I don't think I fall asleep at my bed... I fainted .. if I'm not wrong.. ... .. after 10 minutes, I only woke up. Zzz, then kept sweating cold sweat.. dizzy... zzzzzzz.

zzz, slept for 4 hours..
kena mummy marah -.-

can sleep more derh,
who knows brother came in and kacau -.-
he really know the way to wake me up lorh -.-
steal my blanket @#!@$#$@%@$%%$@$ i know he already want to smack me if I don't wake up -.-
zzzz, woke up then .. shit..dizziness killed me.


hmm..... so this is how it is today........
=(


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okay. i go .. rest in peace now, k ?
#pleasedontletchewwayyandisturbmeorelseikillpeople.