ystd :PP

ystd night
lucky my brother didnt came home too late
I was still .. sempat to wait for him to come home.

So bored while waiting for him.
Scrolling the page up and down , up and down . seeing old stupid photos .
made so many paper balls. LOL


wa..almost 11.45++ ..almost 12 only come home.
Then , the first thing he come in to the house is to asked me ,
"why are you so ugly tonight? " 
I stared at him ,nodded  and said
" i'm ugly everyday la... "
Then he gave me a thumbs up.
LOL.
My brother says i'm ugly. means i am. :)

I followed him to the kitchen .
Without him knowing,
I punched his back many many times.
I punched really hard.
I punched with all my anger in it.
I punched until my hand become dark red -.-

And all he said was,
"very comfortable"


of course, I felt so much better . I even shed my last tear. :D  because my hand hurt. :PP

I said,
" thanks bro."

then I went upstairs.

Then, I thought alot of things....

then almost 1am I only sleep...

==============================================================

I wonder if his back hurt or not -.-
having a naughty sister by his side plus always having mood swing .... is really a harsh thing -.-
and yes, the sister is me. hmmmmmm.

that night, it is so not like him. I know he will surely punch me back but he didn't and I wonder why.. ://

his sad days are over, his drunk days are over  but why mine haven't over yet?
oh yes,
forgotten.
my brother is a boy ,
his heart is so much bigger than mine.
i'm just kecil hati .
immature person who thought that everyone must go at her ways.

fine.
fine.
fine.

=============================================================

I still remember that stupid vow,
last time I thought it was stupid but now, I only know it is so useful when times like this comes by...

1 more thing,
i fuck  people who said age gap is the biggest problem in siblings relationship because in the end, the youngest one will always suffer loneliness while watching the eldest to go to their desires...

thats not true. SO NOT TRUE.

Actually,I wanted to add something behind.

While watching the eldest achieve what they want, I'll always be the happiest one... even if they don't :)

What's more happier to see your brother is earning something more than he is suppose to be earning, seeing your sister is on the way becoming a doctor ?

Naaah, there's nothing happier than these things happen... :)

Do you know why?

my brother is going to be the one who is supporting my education fees when i grew older.


wahahahahhahahaha. Evil . :D

He promised to buy a new smartphoneeeee  for me.. and I'm still waiting. :D.
and his reason was, only retarded person use smartphone. and guess who's using a smartphone now? HE LA -.-
Aish.. I can't believe my father is getting my sister a SII . Zzzzzzzzz. What type of stupid reason is ... reading medical infos in smartphone is much more better and easy -.-

but me? Naaaah. :D I want a Nokia 3310. WAHAHAHHAHA. Crazyyy. As long as I have a phone to call and sms, I want nothing else dy larh ^_^


la la la.

i love my brother very muchhhhhh . 

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today ,
woke up
feel so much better ehhhhhhhhhhh.

I forgotten what happened yesterday,
forgotten what sad things happened.

Hmm I'm a forgetful person :]

today, I hope...
I'm showing a better mood of me to everyone ..^^

~~~~~~~~~  ~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ .

today song in my mind,
Nothin' On You.

LOL . So random :PP


==============================.

my leg pain.pain.pain.
:D

PRS.

hmmmmmmmph.

got the letter.


why out of all my best friends, why am I the only 1 chosen? -.-

fair or not fair?

Hmmmmmph.
I want to know the reason why aren't they chose and why am I chosen.

:PP

never mind. I'm accepting the offer... prepare to see me in purple? HAHA. my $$$ is going to be gone real soon -.- uniform , shoes , vest , my $$$ arh :PP

haha, just realize a thing.

P.R.I.N.C.E.S.S

Weee. LOL


hopefully can.. become a better me? :))

when you say sorry, sorry sorry is not enough.

FUCK THE WORD SORRY.

WHY ALL I HEAR WAS SORRY ?

NOW WHAT'S THE MEANING OF SORRY IF YOU JUST SAID IT AND YOU DON'T MEAN IT? 

someone in my life asked me before, i still remember it is one of my childhood best friends..slightly younger than me..different than lots of other boys... 

he asked me naively ,

" ann  jiejie, why do people always say sorry so easily without thinking but never tried asking what can they do to make everything better for us? "

That time, I was stunned . His age , I really can't imagine him asking me such a complicated question that even I can't find an answer... 

I remembered that we're just at the room playing some board games , i was just only .. 11 , I believe. 

I smiled at him , patted his back and said,

" one day when you grow up , you'll understand that saying sorry, is easy but trying to fix things , is difficult. " 

He laughed at me -.- yes, he laughed at me . I stared at him with the thought of killing him. 

He told me something that even shocked me more ,

"  I hate the word sorry. People never tried to fix things .Saying sorry will never let me feel satisfied. They cherish their ego too much and lack of courage really disappoints me. Do you understand what I feel, ann jie jie? " 

He left me even more question marks that time .  He stood up and left me inside the room alone.  I was still .. you know, like stupid person sitting there thinking .... . That's the toughest question he ever asked me. Although our conversations are only about questions , questions ,questions and i'll be answering answering answering but this one.. really made me blurred. 

Hmmmmmmmph , I can't believe that I still remember that memory. That memory show how immature I am compared to a boy who is younger than me. -.-

I wonder how is he. I lost contact with him after he moved to somewhere far... . 

We used English to communicate and always play board games for no reason. 

He always asked me questions that are beyond his level to think -.- 

For example , : "why are adults so annoying? " , " why do people pretend to be so nice in front of people but talking bad behind of people's back ? " 

I'll always try to answer him LOL.

But of course, he do ask me questions that I don't even know how to answer him because lack of IQ -.-

He will seriously throw the dice at me if I were to speak broken English to him. Argh. 

Thinking of these, really want to make me laugh. Really really nice memories but too bad, he's just someone who walked in to my life and gave me big time lessons and the one who left without leaving a footprint behind...

Aaaaaaaih.

childhood life is so much better compared to now -.- 

hmmmmm, 

so the question's answer,

i'm still confused :)

fine, i'll just stick to how the 11 years old me answered,

saying sorry is easy but fixing things is the difficult part.

hmmmmmph , 

now I understand how you feel ,pal.. I seriously understand.. :D

peace. :D

 

I NEED MY BROTHER

I NEED MY BROTHER
I FCKING NEED MY BROTHER TO RELEASE MY ANGER.


ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

SORRY TO MY TABLE , TO ALL MY STUFFS ON MY TABLE. RIP.

ARGH FML
SERIOUSLY FML
FML FML FML FML FML .

I NEVER FELT SO ANGRY BEFORE -.-
WHY AM I HAVING SUCH HIGH EXPECTATIONS FOR PEOPLE?

SORRY? WHY SAY SORRY IF YOU CAN DO OTHER THINGS BETTER THAN JUST APOLOGIZING ?

I ALSO CAN SAY SORRY LA. SORRY SORRY SORRY . WAN TO SING SUPER JUNIOR'S SORRY SORRY ,IS IT?


I ALREADY LOST MY CONFIDENCE, LOST TRUST FROM MY FAMILY MEMBERS
NOW WHAT THE HELL YOU ALL WANT?

SERIOUSLY SOMEONE KILL ME.

I'M JUST DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO , I NEVER MEANT TO HURT ANYONE ALSO
WHY AM I SO FCKING ANGRY.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.


WANT TO EXAM ALREADY
MY MOOD STILL LIKE SHIT
NOW MORE WORSE THAN SHIT.

ZZZZZZZZZ I AM EFFING CRYING.

AARGH -.-

DONE .

I WANT TO FALL SICK NOW.

I DONT WAN TO GO TUITION OR SCHOOL ANYMORE

SUFFERING . </3


CAN I JUST DIE ?

FML.

-> pig.

my life is nothing different than pigs.
[ not insulting pigs ]

sleep eat play sleep eat play.
when will i touch the books?
i'll only touch facebook.


oh my monpiggie :(


never mind.
after today,
i don't want become pig anymore...
time to touch the books /.\

KH got alot of things to read. **boom**


so far..so good barh ://
suan lerh :((

these few days ..really ..no ..mood...to..do..anything :(
just flip one page, i already die there . ://
only know how to scribble scribble scribble -.-

now, leg and hand oso got plaster.

fissssssh. -.-

expected

as expected....
everything of me is going to be in pieces .

my mom said..
its because my mood affected my health

[ surprised because i thought she don't know anything -.- ]

why am I not happy?
why my mood that low?
all because YOU ALL DIDN'T TRUSTED ME.

fine, rubbish.
yes, i'm a rubbish :]

hooray :D

i'll just .. you know? rest in peace ~~

medication is over, side effects are coming .

i don't know why i was born that weak . :((

now, I know how it feels .. that when you are weak , when you need someone the most by your side but no one is right beside you giving you support and make you at least think that..everything is going to be fine....

i don't need people to add salt add vinegar . it's giving me a headache.. =.=

...........

i have the feeling..i'm going to vomit out my dinner.. zzz.........

========================================= .

just now, I fucking   collapsed all of the sudden.

lucky i'm in my room... or else.. I don't know what will happen la.

Zzz... Do you know I've the sudden thinking that i'm going to lose my life in any second ?

knocked my head, injured my knees.........

on the floor trying to shout but no voice come out -.-"

i'm so scared that time.. i thought i am going to lose everything in just a sudden.
but.. don't know where my strength came from . :D maybe because I don't really want to die... so.. I slowly crawled to my bed... using effing lots of strength to climb up to the bed... zzz like cacat people .. then.. I don't think I fall asleep at my bed... I fainted .. if I'm not wrong.. ... .. after 10 minutes, I only woke up. Zzz, then kept sweating cold sweat.. dizzy... zzzzzzz.

zzz, slept for 4 hours..
kena mummy marah -.-

can sleep more derh,
who knows brother came in and kacau -.-
he really know the way to wake me up lorh -.-
steal my blanket @#!@$#$@%@$%%$@$ i know he already want to smack me if I don't wake up -.-
zzzz, woke up then .. shit..dizziness killed me.


hmm..... so this is how it is today........
=(


============================================================= ;


okay. i go .. rest in peace now, k ?
#pleasedontletchewwayyandisturbmeorelseikillpeople.

leg bleeding -.-
oh . my .gosh. -.-

ROADRUN :D

Yipeeeee :D
I love today :))

Roadrun.. hmmp :))
it is roadwalk la :((

I wanted to run but neverrrr miiinnddddd~
I don't want end up not enough energy then faint :))

Today totally under medication control ,that's why still can tahan until now :D
But when I just look up , the brain don't listen to me and want to spin around already..
hmmmphhh ~ :))
the feeling of under medication control  really "syok"
ngehehehehheheheh.

never mind, if the medication over, I'll just doze off ~~
As expected, I don't feel tired at all .
ngeheheheh :D

= ^^ =


Hmmph :D

spend almost the whole roadrun event with him :D ♥

la la la

:D

thanks for the water by the way :D ^^

ily ♥

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i felt so sorry for Kit Yee. She isn't in the mood, I know . It must be .... someone's fault. hmm,can't be that kepohh :PP


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


hmmph , nice health condition, nice mood, nice everything larh :D

so , today is a success :D ♥


++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++


HAHA, let's think back last year's road run. Don't know you will remember or not :D

==== hmmmmph , promise never been a promise :D =========

== play stupid truth or dare , you were there :D ==

======= can win medal but didn't write name 'cos i'm under a "必输" group. ROFL . This year also the same, our motto is LOSE. LOL ==========

===================================================================



Hmmmmmmmm, hungry. I want to find something and chew . Good byeee :D

walao eh -.-

body got rashes -.-
must be too hot dy...  >_<

but never mind , :D

worth it ~ :))



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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

等清明节时杀人

嘻嘻嘻 ~

得罪我

是错误的选择

^_________^

得罪我哥哥，

你不用再活了~~~~


等着清明节收拾你的尸体~

^____^

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

bangarang all day. feeeeewit ~

很有心情

这几天很有心情写blog
可能是因为心情烦躁时，想发泄吧……

是我自己管理的不好……
想向自己说声对不起 ：（

想起事情怎样发生
就很想用compass刮手
给我痛苦下都爽
[ 我还是自爱的，放心 -.- ]


算了
原来没有自信，没有自尊的感觉
是那么的爽

每次身为妹妹的，
都要哥哥什么事都帮我出头
现在，
哥哥不在
我怎么办？
死掉算了 -.-
[我根本一点都不独立]


我现在姐姐不在身边
连哥哥都不在
tmd 我能向谁喊救命?

连自己的人都出卖我，对我不怀好意
………………………………


我现在真的在问自己
为什么我要是个女的？


……………………………………………………

zzzzzzzzzzz


我在学校伪装得很累  很累……

根本想哭，但是却在那边笑

根本是心烦， 但是却说没事

根本是躲在厕所哭，但是却说……厕所多人所以迟到食堂

老师教书，我却在睡觉 这次肯定成绩退步到不得了

算了
在班上
好像跟自己一个人做

眼泪掉下来 也没有人知道

邻座的，
一个不是往后面 就是坐去前面

而我呢？
就是在那边睡觉 ， 发呆 …… 乱画 ……

老师看到我，我还是勉强挤出笑容……

累 。 这根本不是我要的

=——————————=

加上今天头晕
连人家跟在我后头
我都没有察觉到 ……

还是勉强的尽量秀出自己最灿烂的一面 =.=

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


几时才能等到彩虹的出现？难道，这是一场长命雨？


难道，
真的是要一个人面对吗？
算了，
我15岁了
可以的， 可以的……

原来
开始也是一个人，
过程也是一个人，
结果也是一个人，
永远都是一个人。

——————————————————————————————


# God,thank you for the great weather, for the blessings , for the food you gave to me.. I'm really grateful for everything You gave me. I'll always appreciate what God gave to me and I'll always talk to God when I'm suffering ...  Thank You for not leaving me alone when I'm suffering alone here.. God has always stay by my side giving supports from behind of my back ..  If it's wasn't for God's blessing , today, Dizziness would have killed me and let me faint at the street.... seriously Thank You ...

Lastly, I pray that... God will bless everyone around me , my loved ones , my friends , my family , my relatives...  ... I pray that tomorrow will be a better day for everyone  I also pray that... He will be fine , be happy , be healthy and be safe... .. I also hope I can withstand the pain and fight for myself . I also pray that....tomorrow , after I consume the medicine, just let me sleep soundly... and hopefully Sunday , I can be well again and can control my dizziness :)

Thank You , God. I'll continue later before I sleep... :) Good night . #



_______________.

goodnight. oyasuminasai .. God bless you guys.. sleep well ^^

#it hurts when you see someone you love is sad but it's hurts deeper when you just can't do anything to help that person.



__________  . ____________ . ________________.

laying low..

fishhhhhh.hhhhhhhhhh.....hhh.....

walaaao eh =.=

now got 2 google account =.=
1 for my Youtube channel , 1 for this blogger =.=


MAFAN -.-
don't know which btch  go and report my channel
now, all my videos gone n all my subscriptions.
fish dao..............

=_____________= i cant register youtube acc with this gmail acc . damn shit laaa =.=" forced to open a new 1.. zzzzzzz =.=

now , if I sign in this account, cannot use Youtube channel .
If I sign in another account, cannot use Blogger.

dafuq.

sign in sign out until gila already =.=

never mindddd. chillll ~~~~~~~~~~~

ho yeah, as chill as a turtleee~

lets just bangarang all day laaa =.=

the MV also not bad :D ^^

tuition stuffs -.-

wahahhahahahaha. :D 

all also Friday class derh xDD

calculatorfun (?)

aih, last night's work -.- siennnnn ://

today 240212

rain rain rain..
even now it's raining..

hmmm, just like how I am feeling right now..
rain rain rain...

......... thunder .. lightning... ...

i'll just sit here and wait for the rainbow to come..

although there's nothing for me to worry/sad/cry/angry about..
i'm still feeling like shit


argh.
whatever.


/.\

officially okay.

i'm going to be okay, i know i will :))


^_______________^


= lately having breathing problems and i wonder why :( lungs making some weird sounds... hmmmmm. i know i will be fine =




weeeeeeeeeee
.

back stabbing success.

fuck


NOW I KNOW,
YOU ARE THE STUPID CULPRIT WHO IS BEHIND THIS THING.

Back stab me and my brother?
I can't believe you just succeed =.=

want to attack us mentally?
such a great idea.

sabotage us ?
wow,you did it great.


I can't believe you are the one who is doing all this thing.
You're a really good boy, come , let me give you a THIGH SLAP on your FACE , you this moron =.=

who you are to sabotage us and play with us like that?
who are you to even LIED TO  HIM just to attack us?

waaaa, you're a really great cousin.
BEST .
Even I'm older than you, I'm still a loser ,right?

You really attack us the right way this time.. but the next time, don't try the same way. IT WONT WORK.. !

you made me and my bro lost confidence in just a few hours time. you made me cry for at least hours.  you made him drunk and couldn't come back home . you made me want to avoid my own family member . you made him never wanting to come back home.  most of all , you made us feel like a dumbass,an useless moron, an idiotic person and a really disrespectful person that dirtied our family's name.

Now you really attack at our weakness. You are a very very good boy.
you're the best one I've ever seen in my life. fml.


you won't have a second chance , You may win this time but the truth is, i don't give a damn.

never mind ,
i won't hate you but ... you better be careful when I see you. You will get what you ask for .....
Maybe I won't revenge but who knows, my bro will ?
You just be careful.
I'm sure you will end up hugging your mom crying for your father's help telling your grandfather to revenge.
I seriously don't care. Your people hate me at the first place, So I am used to it. I don't care if this is not only your doing but , seriously, be mature a bit please. BE FAIR . IF YOU CAN'T WIN BY YOUR OWN STRENGTH , AT LEAST DON'T DO DIRTY JOBS BEHIND PEOPLE'S BACK .


%$@$!@#$#%$%@#$
dont cry for your father if your receive revenge. 




peace off. goodbye.

zzz

LEE SUE ANN
STOP BEING SO SAKAIII ! =.=
ZZZ

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I'M HIDING IN MY RUBBISH ROOM FOREVER.



ZZZ I'M NEVER COMING OUT EXCEPT FOR SCHOOLS.

=_______="

220212

so many twos :P

hmmm...

if i got that offer,

should i accept or not? :P

life's hard
there are so many reasons to just stop living.

sometimes i wonder,
what gives me the strength to live on?
the rule book ? my family ? my friends? Him ? or just God ?

living for so many years
yet so many truth revealed .
so many personalities been revealed.
if you're the only one surviving at your own boat,
you will end up drown by the strong waves of the blue ocean.
but i just want to stay at my own boat
what you guys want from me,
i can never give you .

restrictions in house,
i obey every single one of them
punishments?
i've receive the hardest one of all ,canning,slapping,hitting,kneeling,standing outside the sun for hours .

am i not obedient enough?

useless person like me shouldn't be living and yet, there are too many things that I've did a mistake. seriously, too much .

Never mind.

I'm changing.
for the sake of you , for the sake of everyone,
i'm changing and never going to look back.

i will not be the lee sue ann you will know
just let me die alone... in the quiet ocean ........

don't blame me but please, just hate me directly. i was born to be hate by everyone.

i was fate to receive any punishment from God .. for God sake , I'll change just to ....

i'll not get a chance to be myself .. i'll just .. get a chance to be what you wan me to be.
that type of sentences, i never expect you to say it from your mouth.
it hurt me so deeply.
and now, i really want to hide in Saturn forever....
to the humans, to the animals, goodbye and sorry :(

........... = ...............

i'll just dieeee ...........

goodbye.

Anny & Abby :))

Anny Goh and Abby Goh. 

Wahahahhaha :D

Anny is 28.10.11 derh :D

Abby is 14.02.12 derh :D

kekekekke :))

ngoh ngoh ngoh :D

#ilovemonpiggie

情人节拍的

O.o

竟然在地上睡觉 :OO

I LOVE MR MONPIGGIEEEE ! :)

Monkeyyy :DD

its name is Abby :))

i dont know what to describe about just now.

today seriously heartbroken.

@!#$@$@#%$@

#thebestvalentinesdayever ♥

my first time celebrating valentines day :D

it's awesome :')

YAHYAHYAH <33

Although I wasn't that satisfied because my plan failed =.= ..but now, i know everything is worth it !!!! :D 

wahahahahhahahahahhah.

happy ^__________^ 

weeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~

so nice so nice so nice :D 

[lol sot already!]

I will always remember this day ^^ 140212 hhahaha a lovely day :D

I LOVE MONKEY I LOVE MONKEY I LOVE MONKEY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAAA T______________T 

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :D

too happy dy. happy until got tears :') 

weeeeeeeeee. he happy i also happy :D he hyper i am grateful for everything!!!!

Thank you God ! You make everything went nice :D !  

Wahahahaha.

Lastly, 

happy valentines day to everyone!! i love you all ! 

lastly, 

i love you, Goh Jun Xian :)) <3

goodnight everyone ! muackz. :D

you never know how much it hurts...

When the rain is blowing in your face,
and the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
to make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
and there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
to make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
but I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
no doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
and on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
you ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
to make you feel my love

:(

_______________________________________________________________________

this song, is just from me to you :((

i will do anything , to make you feel my love , make you feel happy :((

zzz

seriously, you'll never know how much it hurts to see you sad, see you bored, see you angry , see you not well , see you not fine...

i am sorry , Jun Xian . That I can't do anything . Although I never showed it on my face, never showed it in my words but.. deeply in my heart is crying out loud..

Pssssssssssssssssh.

Happy at the morning, okay at the afternoon,totally sucks in the evening.

:((

How I wish just now.. I can show a fine face , and he...may be will be better too :(

GOLD COINS !

He gave me a pack of present :PP

It is GOLD COINS!


nge.he.he =.=

actually its chocolate :DD


tq deer :))

很大的牺牲 :((

我那么 辛苦才玩到level 25

为了你，
我跌到level 23 :(( 现在还在跌着 T_T

为了让你赢，
牺牲了我的tetris grade. oh my gawd :')

哇
现在很难上level 啊 T___________T

** 哭泣中**

just now did something that i never thought i will do :))

but ...

at least I did . HAHHAHA

:D

to school ; from school.

i'm very delightful ,grateful and feel very 幸福 :')

Go to school,
got Yun Yun accompany me :))

From now on , back from school,
got HIM to accompany me home :')

Aaaaaaaaaaah, I feel so happy and grateful.
Thank God for letting me have such a great friends and ..a great boyfriend , I guess? haha :')

hmmmmmm
feel so happy and the feeling of loved, is all over me now :))

^__________^

I love you all , and YOU TOO , LYCHEEEE! :D

turn back time...

hahahahha , others de don't feel like showing ://

this is all 2005 derh, when I'm just standard 2 :)) 

hehe what do you think ? XD

2012 and 2006

 2012

2006

got any difference? :))

realize i had grow alot since young ... :))

turn out to be more mature in things :D

people may hate growing up but.. 

i love growing up because it is a type of nature.. :)) 

i know i looked ugly =.=

but.. there's 1 person who always reminds me that i am pretty :)) 

thats more than enough :))

hmm :))

tq :D have a nice day ^^

close my eyes

the beauty of closing eyes ;

some things we don't see by using our eyes but feel it with our heart

we close our eyes when we pray

.........

we close our eyes when we don't want to see anything that is awful...


almost every beautiful things happen when we close our eyes... :))

listen here

listen here , boy.
this is for you , and only you.




i don't want to hear anymore
"i don't want to disturb you" 
'cos you'll never disturb me 


i don't want to hear anymore
" i am wasting your time "
'cos my time are all for you to waste


i don't care if you made me mad
because I know i'll always forgive you .


i don't care if you hurt me
because I know you didn't do it on purpose and you never thought of cheating me either






I'm not being soft, I'm not letting you win everything
but.. I just want to appreciate time with you right now or else  I wouldn't have the chance to .




i know things are just starting to be more beautiful but , even the most brightest star will stop shining one day... 


although next year will come fast , because even January says goodbye in one blink of an eye , but , I'll not think about how you are going to leave , but I'll just think .. how to make everyday a better day.




i'll not give up on you, will not give up on us . 
i'm giving you everything i could give


:))




I'm sorry , if my words were a bit cold and cool
I don't really know how to say sweet words or words that can comfort you.  


but I know ,
you always know that I love you alot.




i'll just close my eyes , and tell the whole world that,


i will only love 1 , and always 1 and never 2 or more . 
my heart only has the place for only 1 boy that isn't blood related to me. 


so, for those who has feelings for me , those who likes to say sweet words that made me want to punch you, please kindly f*** off.  






我爱你，吴峻贤 :)) <3
i love you , Goh Jun Xian :)) 
saranghaeyo
aishiteru 
te'amo
je t'aime :))


<3


good bye ! :) adios , have a nice day peeps :DD

i'd rather be hurt , than be cheated.

我的手机，
永远都不会再有你的信息了

是吗？

:((

无论如何，

我会依然爱你 :'）

cb
心情又差回了

不知道这几天在搞什么的…… zzz

这几天 心情差劲

担心我的朋友们，对不起
安慰我的朋友，谢谢你们

^^

我的心情好多了

至于发生什么事，
大家应该心知肚明吧


^^

还有，
happyholidays :D

suddenly

today's mood => happy,angry,happy,sad,tears :)

happy because of chasing . HAHAHAH.

hmm,
angry because of him .

sad? tears?

just suddenly I heard Christina Aguilera's Hurt ,
heart damaged
reminded me of my long lost cousin ..

sincerely I really love all of my cousins even I don't show my affection..

as the song just played ..and played.. tears dropped down .

don't know why , just don't know why . it's been 6 years and yet, couldn't forget...