disappointment.

i farking cried for you..zzz


never got high hopes for someone you love
never expect too much for someone you love.

LESSON LEARNT.

sorry myself,
for getting myself in such a disappointment..

we get disappointed easily because.. we were always willing to do the same to the another person..

to be honest,
i really hated internet relationships.. i want a relationship that looks like how we are always in internet..

do you know how i feel today?
i felt like i was sitting with you , and my heart and yours are so far away even though we're sitting just right next to each other. woophs correction, you and your friend sit together much more closer.

its not like i sit behind with you just for fun..i wanted to spend more time with you! and yet.. yes, you spend more time with you friend . I still remember what you say.. ITS BECAUSE I REMEMBERED WHAT YOU SAY , THATS WHY I AM SO DISAPPOINTED RIGHT NOW!

you said you wanted to spend more time with me in school
you said you can see your friends always but not me
you said i was your number 1

but now why do i feel like you wanted to spend more time with your friends instead of me?
why do i feel like you wanted to see your friends more instead of me?
why do i felt like i am not your number 1


if you didn't say all of those, i wouldn't have been so disappointed.


if it wasn't for you ,
i wouldn't have stand outside the class just to see you and talk to you
if it wasn't for you,
i wouldn't have always walk out from the class when the moment teacher step out from the class just to check on you
if it wasn't for you,
i wouldn't have just stop talking to my friends just to see you 
if it wasn't for you,
i wouldn't have just sat with you... 


if it wasn't for you, 
i wouldn't get so disappointed!
i wouldn't have cried for you!
i wouldn't waste my time on you instead of my precious friends!


do you know its tired for me to always have to open my mouth to speak , only you will speak to me? 
do you know what other people think of us when we sat behind ? 
do you know why do i get so disappointed? 


heart bleeding.