i'm physically , mentally tired.

These few days , just became such burden days for me .

I can't concentrate on thing, seldom get headache , keep on do mistakes which is SILLY ! Dammit , everything is upside down . = =

I admit, this year has been such a mess for me ! Everything became so messy after all the house things handle to me ! I make it such a mess.
I admit, I'm not as clever as my sister to handle this type of thing but .. I'm trying!Now, trying is way too stressful for me .. and now ,really 自食其果 , other people also felt like nothing but .. I ate my own medicine and felt stress for myself already ! GOSH = =

Now , I really like to throw things when I'm so frustrated. I don't think I can study until i'm mentally stable already ! But must thank someone who called me last night, it bring me happiness though it's a bit lame but at least, it's also a type of happiness . It totally cracked me up ! :) Until the end, I made him angry because I didn't help him "kao luii" marh ! LOL xD

So.. I never felt so tired before ...
First, 28/9/2011 , emotional totally drained my energy out of me , heart is sinking. I'm too sensitive over stuff. HOW CAN HE TREAT ME LIKE THAT?I GAVE HIM ALMOST EVERYTHING I CAN.... Never mind! I let him eat his own medicine. I don't like you anymore and I don't love you anymore and I hate you! Hopefully you like it.

Second, I've totally ignored you for the whole morning and whole afternoon and the whole night . how cool is that?
Yes, very cool . I hurt myself .

Third, human just can't shut up when I'm sleeping. I'm so tired, and yet, you still want to interrupt me when I'm having my beauty sleep . You made me so grumpy in the morning, thank you =))

Fourth, just be honest, the party ,I didn't enjoy much. I felt like being left out ! LEFT OUT. I'm just like a person who is simply finding people to ease my boredom . This really really drained my energy out . Too bad, I thought I was going to have fun with her but.. NO . Yea, nobody can accompany me for my whole life ,right? It's fine though. I improved myself alot for not being jealous easily. Yes, I'm not jealous , it's just that, I felt lonely . Where are you when I needed you ?  I don't know ! Most probably in my heart? =))

Fifth, all this things merge together, it brings mentally tiredness to me and it became physically tiredness , felt so tired always... I've been a clumsy self... Hopefully things would have change for me.. ITS OCTOBER MAN!!!! 24 days to my birthday. I wish to spend more time with you =)