hehehe :D quite long time didn't write letter for you already ! :D Although you wouldn't see this but I wrote this as a secret letter that will never be sent out ! :) You made my day more shinyyyy of course with Minho oppa, Jonghyun oppa , Key umma and Onew oppa :DDD But I hope you can made me more happier and of course, God bless YOU :D
Recently , I've kinds of misunderstood and conflict . First, I didn't really know what happen until my friend which is Jonghyun oppa's fan ! Her name is Angel because she's like an angel? All I can say is.. what really I think happened that day.
First , went to school ......... and everything started at recess right? Was requested to help Angel !~~ Help her with delivering curry puffs :D Followed the new teacher the whole day. me and her didn't know anything AT ALL . Really nothing at all . I won't lie to you , my baby Taemin. If I ever lie to you , I don't deserve to love someone that is so honest and innocent like you ! Yes If I ever lie ... I surrender my life to God to offer to someone who needed one .
All I remembered was just blurred memories...... I just don't remember sad things but until someone said it, flashback starts to come back like how Puteri Elina did . Wow ..suddenly all the flashbacks came . Just lucky enough tears didn't really run out from my eyes but suffered instant heart sink .
Blurred memories was her walking down from the stair. All I hope was just a simple best friend greeting but all she gave me was just a cold face and nothing else. I really don't know what to do but as I know.. If someone's mood bad , just leave someone alone. She told me before, when she's sad , someone come and ask her or console her , she will cry even harder ! That's goes the same for me . So I don't dare to touch her pun.
태민 아~ ! You must be so great in friendship !!! Everyone loves you .. Everyone just wanna chat with you.. play with you ! How lucky of you being a boy ... havin' friendship problems that are easy to solveeee ! Eee , 사랑해 !! Geeez ! I know some people just think I am just pushing blames on her but seriously, I didn't do anything wrong this time ! So as my friend , Angel ! We're both may not be innocent for what she see with her eyes but what we think , in our heart, we just chose the right decision for her!
It may not be a wise and happy decision for her but ... it's our choice right? I'm sorry if we did the wrong choice but we didn't really know anything ! I know it's wrong to attack my friend but seriously ,we do treasure this beautiful and indeed meaningful friendship for three of us ! It's not going to be history, It's so not going to end now and It's not going to fade in the future!
Seriously, I'll keep this "Sorry" word because I still haven't realize what wrong did I do . I'm sorry that I'm not that kind of person who said sorry for nothing to just to stop things from growing bigger. It's so not my principals of life.
Just as usual , I don't like people to come and interrupt my time with my friends! So as any other people around the Earth ! So only me and her don't dare to come and console you when your mood is bad . Sorry if you think I'm attacking back but this is what I really think because everyone has their own opinions ! Has their rights to voice out ! I know you would think I'm just trying to protecting myself but at last, this is really what I think .
So , if you had chosen her to tell what you felt , your problems , then it's up to you then . We've nothing to said or either control your fckin' friendship . I'm sorry to use the "fckin" word since your friendship is so fckin awesome . [ no sarcasm was used ] It's okay if you don't chose us but chose some other else people . This is your choice, your life , your "ships" . We've no rights to interrupt . By the way, we didn't even interrupt in the first place . Have we ever disturb your other friends when you're talking with them ? The answer is I don't even know. If yes, then I'm sorry but I won't ever do that again . This thing has no been bothering ONLY you but also bothered both of us , me and Angel . Although she didn't mention much but I mention lots. Don't care though but I'm not that kind of girl to apologize for something that is not my bloody hell fault. Sorry to had used rude or impolite words because lately, i'm not a good girl anymore.
NO intention to attack you by the way if you're thinking that. If you care about this , please do let us know where we did wrong. If we really think we did that , I can only apologize you with full hearts. Don't care if you want a send a sms full of bad words with angriness .Don't really care if you want to insult me , humiliate me , talk bad about me , spoil my reputation or telling everyone to not friend such a badass friend like me infront of the public . Because I don't believe you won't do such thing.
I'm really really happy for you for getting someone you admire ! You seems to be more happier by then ! I felt so much relieved because I know.. Love is happiness ! I'm really really happy but please do understand , what we do is always the best for you. Did I ever did anything in school like teasing you in front of that person? That person who pushed you to him, talked until so obviously infront of him , IS NOT ME. Because I know the feeling of being teased! = ="
I know , you are going to start thinking " I DIDN'T SAY THAT . YOU SAID THAT ON YOUR OWN" Ahahah . Yeap . Yes I said that just in case you are curious ! Just act as a confession,kay? Something that made you angry huh? We didn't even touch you by the way.
That's all I want to say. Your blog is no longer a place I wanna hang out. Just like when I open seeing a heartstabbing post . What a pity .
Sorry Taemin ! I was so frustrated that YOU became the girl ! Sorry my dear Taemin ~ 미안해 TT_TT . Do advise me what to do..... Taemin , your motto , I'll always hold it. " Do your best and wait for God's direction " Okay.. All I have to do now is to wait for God's direction right? I love you Taemin ! :D Bye bye~~안녕히계세요 :DD
From SUE ANN <3
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