Hello~
The mood of updating this blog is HERE!
Actually, I am still having my finals but then.....only the last paper left! Weee~ (Last Paper Syndrome)
I had a hard time doing accoutings..SERIOUSLY.. jesus christ .. I just want a pass. I don't wanna retake this whole subject.. waste of money and much pain in the ass.. :(
Oh guys..
I am so so so in love....with this guy .. and I think I can already consider him as my boyfriend..
Let me tell you...
my heart has been so so so fucking cold ever since my first love just went off like that..and the second one is just fucking hopeless...
but.. i felt so warm right now with this guy...
he holds my hand.. he hugs me.. he kisses me...
:)
he makes me feel all mushy inside... i felt like i was going to explode..
i have to control myself, seriously.
oh sue ann, please.. protect him . he might look strong but look at his heart, he's so fragile..
sue ann, be careful , his heart is precious, it's fragile.. handle it with care..
sue ann.. love him with your whole heart.. he's worth it :)
Thursday, July 14, 2016
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
14th of June 2016
Entering my 3rd month of my degree life...
I would say.. it is beautiful.
I started as a lonely girl but now..I'm starting to enjoy it so much.
I meet people, and bid farewell to them as well.
There are so many things I have to update ..
I find Accounting to be the hardest among the four subjects that I am taking for this semester.
After depreciation, I find myself floating at the clouds of confusion...
I wouldn't want to get an A but at least, a pass?
Oh god... ha ha ha.
My first obstacle for this course is the management assignment. I was forced to join a group that I didn't quite know who are the members like... and turns out the group wasn't that effective and efficient. I got mad but still, everything turns out well.
Okay.
Let's talk about something happier and more exciting (?)
I think I have a crush on someone.
I am serious, I think I will fall in love with him anytime soon.
No, I think I already did.
I didn't know what about him that attracted me so much..
He looks mediocre, he isn't tall, isn't fit.. but that aura that oozes from him, it's just so attractive.
I didn't know since when I started giving him my heart, I didn't know when I did I fell so deep into him, it all just happened without any prior notice.
It first started when he joined us, and everything just went smoothly with the guidance of fate. I know how awkward I am with the opposite sex, if I could avoid them, I would avoid them at all cost. I just don't feel comfortable with them but he's just different. I didn't expect that we click so well.
I started out by helping him with his studies because he was absent. My heart just told me that I should help him, I should assist him and I did. He returned me with great kindness, he chat with me, and now, we talk everyday with super long paragraphs. When I say super long paragraphs, I ain't joking. It took me 30 minutes ++ to reply everything he wrote. Can you imagine how long our message is? We talk all kinds of rubbish, we talk profound topics, we talk about almost everything. I want to know everything about him, so I am willing to give out anything about me. That's how much I am into him.
Further knowing him for these 3 months, I realize what is so attractive about him that makes me feel so weak. He's so different from the boys I knew. Yes, the biggest difference would be the age. He's a 95-liner. I guess a 2 years gap brings maturity to another level. He's mature, responsible, down to earth person , and not to mention, hardworking and nice. Just everything I want in a man. Sometimes, he might not be able to put his thoughts into proper words, and sometimes, I just can't work out what he is trying to say but trust me, if you pay attention, listen, take time to digest what he said, what he typed, you will realize how brilliant and unique this guy is. I guess, this is the sole reason why I am so head over heels to him.
Everyday, I look at him, I will smile. He makes me forget my burden, my trouble. He makes my heart race, makes me flustered. I did everything, so obvious that I am into him. I want our bonds to advance to the next level but I don't want things to go too quick ..unless I want to take the risk of losing everything again. I have decided, I will invest in us, I will take time, make things go in our pace.
I have this feeling, this strong feeling that we have mutual feelings. :) I do hope we can have a happy one, regardless being lovers or just normal friends. I really really like you.
You're cute ; you are always playing expressions in front of me...
You know what, I'm extremely aware and mindful of this border between a male and a female. I wouldn't touch a guy if possible.
However, with you... I feel the urge to touch you so badly. Maybe because you have accidentally touched me so many times (that I doubt it's just pure accident) You touched my hands when during some times,you could have avoided it. When you did that, it was like giving me permission to closer our distance. Today, I lost control. You were squatting beside me and you showed frustration. My hands automatically ruffled your hair ...... because you looked like a helpless child. The next moment when you raised your head, your red cheeks emerged. It was so cute....... I am unsure about this but this isn't the first time I caught you having red cheeks. Whenever we talked or have eye contacts for longer period, your cheeks will flush and that is when I find you so adorable. Today, I also attacked your shoulder with my elbow. Ha ha ha that was natural reaction..when you said you have an "auditor" here .. but you said you are going to treat me lunch. YAY :) Sometimes, his usage of words is also cute... Ahhhhh, everything about him is irresistible to me.
Oh dang, Pusheen... please be mine already. Let me show you affection, let me be the honourable one that will support you in the future... ;_; .
I really don't want this to be an unrequited love.
.........
love you.
I would say.. it is beautiful.
I started as a lonely girl but now..I'm starting to enjoy it so much.
I meet people, and bid farewell to them as well.
There are so many things I have to update ..
I find Accounting to be the hardest among the four subjects that I am taking for this semester.
After depreciation, I find myself floating at the clouds of confusion...
I wouldn't want to get an A but at least, a pass?
Oh god... ha ha ha.
My first obstacle for this course is the management assignment. I was forced to join a group that I didn't quite know who are the members like... and turns out the group wasn't that effective and efficient. I got mad but still, everything turns out well.
Okay.
Let's talk about something happier and more exciting (?)
I think I have a crush on someone.
I am serious, I think I will fall in love with him anytime soon.
No, I think I already did.
I didn't know what about him that attracted me so much..
He looks mediocre, he isn't tall, isn't fit.. but that aura that oozes from him, it's just so attractive.
I didn't know since when I started giving him my heart, I didn't know when I did I fell so deep into him, it all just happened without any prior notice.
It first started when he joined us, and everything just went smoothly with the guidance of fate. I know how awkward I am with the opposite sex, if I could avoid them, I would avoid them at all cost. I just don't feel comfortable with them but he's just different. I didn't expect that we click so well.
I started out by helping him with his studies because he was absent. My heart just told me that I should help him, I should assist him and I did. He returned me with great kindness, he chat with me, and now, we talk everyday with super long paragraphs. When I say super long paragraphs, I ain't joking. It took me 30 minutes ++ to reply everything he wrote. Can you imagine how long our message is? We talk all kinds of rubbish, we talk profound topics, we talk about almost everything. I want to know everything about him, so I am willing to give out anything about me. That's how much I am into him.
Further knowing him for these 3 months, I realize what is so attractive about him that makes me feel so weak. He's so different from the boys I knew. Yes, the biggest difference would be the age. He's a 95-liner. I guess a 2 years gap brings maturity to another level. He's mature, responsible, down to earth person , and not to mention, hardworking and nice. Just everything I want in a man. Sometimes, he might not be able to put his thoughts into proper words, and sometimes, I just can't work out what he is trying to say but trust me, if you pay attention, listen, take time to digest what he said, what he typed, you will realize how brilliant and unique this guy is. I guess, this is the sole reason why I am so head over heels to him.
Everyday, I look at him, I will smile. He makes me forget my burden, my trouble. He makes my heart race, makes me flustered. I did everything, so obvious that I am into him. I want our bonds to advance to the next level but I don't want things to go too quick ..unless I want to take the risk of losing everything again. I have decided, I will invest in us, I will take time, make things go in our pace.
I have this feeling, this strong feeling that we have mutual feelings. :) I do hope we can have a happy one, regardless being lovers or just normal friends. I really really like you.
You're cute ; you are always playing expressions in front of me...
You know what, I'm extremely aware and mindful of this border between a male and a female. I wouldn't touch a guy if possible.
However, with you... I feel the urge to touch you so badly. Maybe because you have accidentally touched me so many times (that I doubt it's just pure accident) You touched my hands when during some times,you could have avoided it. When you did that, it was like giving me permission to closer our distance. Today, I lost control. You were squatting beside me and you showed frustration. My hands automatically ruffled your hair ...... because you looked like a helpless child. The next moment when you raised your head, your red cheeks emerged. It was so cute....... I am unsure about this but this isn't the first time I caught you having red cheeks. Whenever we talked or have eye contacts for longer period, your cheeks will flush and that is when I find you so adorable. Today, I also attacked your shoulder with my elbow. Ha ha ha that was natural reaction..when you said you have an "auditor" here .. but you said you are going to treat me lunch. YAY :) Sometimes, his usage of words is also cute... Ahhhhh, everything about him is irresistible to me.
Oh dang, Pusheen... please be mine already. Let me show you affection, let me be the honourable one that will support you in the future... ;_; .
I really don't want this to be an unrequited love.
.........
love you.
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